Being Bolder

What kind of life do I want? I don’t know. But I know what I won’t want myself to regret about.

In general, I don’t have regrets that trouble me all the time. But I do have the omission kind of regrets. I tended to “play it too safe”, while overthinking what might come next. I wish I did things differently in a certain way. I couldn’t name what this “way” is. Finally, I think the word is “bolder”.

I do not mean arrogant and rude kind of bold. I can never allow myself to be rude to people. But I can be braver, more authentic, and firm on what I want to achieve. A bit more assertive for myself.

Often, it’s no big deal. But I let the downside prevent me from betting on the possible gains. “Bet” is a good word. Sometimes, I overanalysed with the things I know, leading to a bet way safer than it needed. However, most of the time there are just thousands more unknown factors. And it just turns out alright.

I also overthink about other people’s reaction. It only dawns on me lately that people tend to think more about themselves than others. Think of how to make a bad situation good for other people. And it will be alright for you. Each of your problem is at the same time also a problem on the other side. This perspective helps me a lot.

I am working towards it. I know I won’t regret about this. Have a nice Christmas everyone, and a happy new year.